Struggles

The universe just doesn’t want me to go home this weekend. Every time I try to make plans or a time to leave something ridiculous pops up and throws off my plans. No matter what tomorrow I will in my car taking the 3 and a half, hopefully not 4, hour drive across the Connecticut, New York and finally Jersey state lines. Just give me that sign that says “Welcome to the Garden State”. That’s not too much to ask, right?

Naturally, there is only one song on playing on my iphone this afternoon, Michael Buble’s “Home”. It is just the reminder I need that tomorrow is going to come and I will get to cuddle up in my own bed real soon! We each have our kryptonites, one of mine happens to be home, but I have others.

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

 No matter how many times I call or Skype it just doesn’t feel the same as the actual act of being home. It’s a hug, it’s a smile, it’s the fact that your mom makes your favorite dinner just because your coming home. Last semester I went home a lot more than usual, but this semester I just haven’t had time. I’m also going to Italy for spring break instead of going home and relaxing for the week. I know it is going to be the experience of a lifetime, but it doesn’t mean I won’t miss home with all of my heart.

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

I just really have that ache in my heart to go home, writing about it does help it. I just feel like being surrounding by such amazing people. Give me really good food, and my own bed and I’m set! There are few things I am as passionate about in life as home. It seems silly, but I’m just a family oriented person. Always have been, and probably always will be. They always believe in me, and that’s the best people to have in your life. I’ve gotten more used to being away from home, and it gets easier overtime. Yet, I cry every single time I leave. It just happens because there is nothing better than Mays Landing, NJ with all of my family and my parents and the whole crew.

I really wish my friends from home were going home this weekend too, but I know they are super busy people. I’ll be really excited to see them in three/four weeks when we’re all home for Easter. Just a few more  hours, a little bit of packing and I’ll be there!

For the record, Dr. Suesses Birthday is tomorrow!

Love, Lindsey

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March 1, 2013. Tags: , , , , , . music. 2 comments.

Defining Time

Yesterday was a very exciting day in my family. It was my parent’s 23rd wedding anniversary. I consider 23 years a pretty good amount of time, and couldn’t be luckier to have the parents I do. My mom and I have a little bit of an obsession with Christina Perri.  We could listen to her music on repeat for days and still not be sick of it. In fact, over break my mom had her CD in the car which we replayed over and over again. Needless to say, my dad got really tired of it.

But in celebration of their anniversary I’m picking “A Thousand Years” by Christina Perri for today’s blog post. This song is incredibly beautiful and very  soothing. I know my parents haven’t been together for a thousand years, but the lyrics celebrate love and the fact that can still last. I know it was used for The Twilight: Breaking Dawn Part 1 , but I found the song because of Christina Perri.

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall 

Hello every girl from 18-20 years old who is afraid to get involved with someone because they don’t want to get hurt. How is it possible to love when we are afraid to fall? If we don’t take the first leap you can’t get any further. Love is always going to be scary, it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try. At 20-25 this is the time of our lives where we are thinking to the future and getting into relationships that start to define our future. Nothing wrong with being single ladies though.

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

I honestly believe that this song is beautiful enough to be a wedding song, it would be the perfect song to have a first dance to. Can you imagine being with someone for 20+ years, let alone a thousand if that were possible? Can you imagine being happy and happily married for those years? Every marriage is going to have days that aren’t perfect. Life isn’t about being perfect. Life is about being with someone who makes you happy, even if they drive you mad sometimes.

Like the song, I believe I will find someone and that you will too. (If you haven’t already)

Love, Lindsey

February 5, 2013. Tags: , , , , , . music. 1 comment.